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Dec. 3rd, 2007 06:17 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elementalheroDear parents:
Okay, here's the deal. I missed an assignment in a class and turned it in a day late for half-credit. I got a bad grade in another class, but I redid it for seven points added to my grade. I did my best on that one. And I failed to ace it.
I'm not perfect. You two know that. You tell me you know that.
What you fail to realize is this: I don't want to be perfect.
I spend time on the Internet because I enjoy it. That doesn't mean I'm slacking off.
I genuinely forget things. I genuinely screw up sometimes. But I always pick myself up and resolve to do better.
You give me lectures and you tell me that you're so disappointed in me.
If I lived my life solely the way that wouldn't disappoint everyone, I'd hate myself forever.
I'm not doing well in school for you. I'm doing it for me and my future. So if you think that punishing me will make me do better, I'm insulted that you assume I wouldn't be disappointed in myself and resolve to do better on my own. In fact, I'm disgusted that you seem to think so low of me.
And if I do badly on an assignment simply for failing to fall within the cute little box of state standards for education? I don't care.
I've stopped caring.
You tell me I'm so smart that I could do anything I wanted.
What would you say if this is what I want?
Okay, here's the deal. I missed an assignment in a class and turned it in a day late for half-credit. I got a bad grade in another class, but I redid it for seven points added to my grade. I did my best on that one. And I failed to ace it.
I'm not perfect. You two know that. You tell me you know that.
What you fail to realize is this: I don't want to be perfect.
I spend time on the Internet because I enjoy it. That doesn't mean I'm slacking off.
I genuinely forget things. I genuinely screw up sometimes. But I always pick myself up and resolve to do better.
You give me lectures and you tell me that you're so disappointed in me.
If I lived my life solely the way that wouldn't disappoint everyone, I'd hate myself forever.
I'm not doing well in school for you. I'm doing it for me and my future. So if you think that punishing me will make me do better, I'm insulted that you assume I wouldn't be disappointed in myself and resolve to do better on my own. In fact, I'm disgusted that you seem to think so low of me.
And if I do badly on an assignment simply for failing to fall within the cute little box of state standards for education? I don't care.
I've stopped caring.
You tell me I'm so smart that I could do anything I wanted.
What would you say if this is what I want?
