ee ja nai ka?

[elementalhero]

Dear parents:

Okay, here's the deal.  I missed an assignment in a class and turned it in a day late for half-credit.  I got a bad grade in another class, but I redid it for seven points added to my grade.  I did my best on that one.  And I failed to ace it.

I'm not perfect.  You two know that.  You tell me you know that.

What you fail to realize is this: I don't want to be perfect.

I spend time on the Internet because I enjoy it.  That doesn't mean I'm slacking off.

I genuinely forget things.  I genuinely screw up sometimes.  But I always pick myself up and resolve to do better.

You give me lectures and you tell me that you're so disappointed in me.

If I lived my life solely the way that wouldn't disappoint everyone, I'd hate myself forever.

I'm not doing well in school for you.  I'm doing it for me and my future.  So if you think that punishing me will make me do better, I'm insulted that you assume I wouldn't be disappointed in myself and resolve to do better on my own.  In fact, I'm disgusted that you seem to think so low of me.

And if I do badly on an assignment simply for failing to fall within the cute little box of state standards for education?  I don't care.

I've stopped caring.

You tell me I'm so smart that I could do anything I wanted.

What would you say if this is what I want?

Comments

[sincere]

I read somewhere that a huge percentage of students in the upper percentiles are stressed out beyond belief -- for them, getting a B is a horrible experience. A lot of the times, I think it's because they have to go home to parents like that. Parents who think that a bad grade or a bad semester is going to ruin their baby's future. Mine were like that, too. I think my mother would have strangled me for my own good if I'd ever gotten a C. It got to the point where I'd hide from her -- even long after the years when it mattered. I never told her I'd dropped a class midway through the semester in grad school because I was afraid of what she'd say.

When will they learn that they're not helping? :\

Good luck!

[leradny.livejournal.com]

Word to the rant, love!

[ironside.livejournal.com]

*HUG*

There's so much more to life than school. I wish school~ knew that. XD Sometimes I wish I could've been homeschooled right from kindergarten onward--classes and grades and everything are just so f--cking discouraging.

"Cute little box of state standards for education"

Ahaha. Oh gosh. I couldn't have said it any better. D:

But just so this isn't a TOTALLY DISCOURAGING comment: "Life in a box is better than no life at all, I expect."

[hug-me-im-em0.livejournal.com]

UGH, it is soooooooooo incredibly STUPID of your parents to ride you like that because you made a couple boo-boos. *shakes fist in the air* Look, hun, I definitely know that I'M not perfect and I slack off too (hello, even though I am number 5 in my class doesn't mean I DON'T MAKE MISTAKES). So why are your parents giving you a hard time.

This is why we are called HUMAN.

We have that right to make mistakes.

Build a bridge and get over it, parents.

Sheesh D: